Have You found Your Rome? - part I

Since I am studying to become a creative couple worker or whatever it will be, I do tend to collect cute educations beside my straight jobs, because I am a creative woman, so then lately there are times I need to write for my thesis. Some of these writings are full of personal wonderments, as usual... Since I am a pretty clueless 67 model, divorced twice and in the 4th relationship and carrying inborn and breastfed narcissism, I will write every now and then, in my broken english since that's what I am supposed to write it for this purpose. But how can't I just click and paste from my drafts? Oh well. I will learn. So I will just start by writing it all over again- maybe it will get better by this, who knows. I have no dreams left about writing my bestseller anymore, but I never have even started, this can be it...

Have You heard the saying- every road leads to Rome. That has made me to think that maybe Rome is something that is our destination in life. And since it looks to be a winding and long road - I guess we don't really get there at once, so it is more like a tail and must be also a puzzle- since how can every road lead to one and the same. Even so there is a wonderful city called Rome, where I did enjoy the visit actually on my 41 st birthday and also some 10 years ago... I might be even brave enough to add a picture of me at the Trevi fountain-probably...

Well I was at Rome or in Rome and did what Romans do 2 years ago - but I did felt alone. I was staying there at Easters in Rome. Not like totally alone, I was with my 15 years old son, but it is not like the same. There is something about the city what is so romantic that it makes You dream about beautiful romances. It does not help sadly even to be checked up by few guys in a pub, much younger than myself for sure, or by your handsome or old italian waitress, who will get paid for his bella donna's. Also back in 2000 (I guess it was then, also in March, when I'm born) when I was first time in Rome in business trip I was also travelling alone. I got more bellas og amores then, being around 30 as we all can imagine blond and not paying even for them. So summa summaris being in Rome alone and newly separated, or divorced, or as single is not the road You were looking for all your life to find.

I will therefor call Rome a place You always want to be, but hardly ever find... I will come back to the point that Rome is the real paradise lost... The place we always long after, the place we did loose when we felt separate first time from our mother and felt not loved or seen. A place where everything can become right again, where we heal and blossom... But is Rome a place for solitude? Is life made for living alone. Will You find your Rome with your sweetheart? Where is Rome if not around the Trevi fountain? We will see - I will come back with all of it or parts of it after I learn to paste and clue or I will have a moment to wonder on and create more unique Rome. Hope You will tell me everything about Your Rome.